Well the weather is kind of funky today. It is breezy and all the trees decided to pollinate today so there is just a ton of junk in the air. I'm feeling good except my throat feels scratchy which I don't know if it is because of the weather or because my medicine gives you dry mouth and that is turning into dry throat.
Eleanor had a wigging out moment last night. She woke up at midnight and was crying, I went in and picked her up, gave her the pacifier and she did not want that pacifier so she started crying even harder. So I thought, ok she must be hungry, I went to nurse her and she started screaming. Scared the heck out of me because it wasn't like any of her usual cries so I didn't know what she wanted. I took her into my bedroom and Warren was awake, turned on a bathroom light, and she's just sitting there shaking and screaming. Warren tries to rock her and then she's flailing her arms and screaming. So I set her on my lap and start singing some of her bedtime songs and she slowly calms down but with that shuttering whimper type breathing. We had to just sit there for a while singing and talking till she was a little more normal. Then I nursed her and took her back to bed. Warren commented that she is a drama queen already. I was just happy that she wasn't hurt. I think that is one of my worst fears is for her to be in pain and I don't know why or what to do to stop it.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Today!
Well I went to the doctor yesterday and first of all, I changed doctors and I went to a female doctor and it was so great! It was awesome because she knew exactly how I was feeling, she summarized all the negative and positive things I've been growing through and she made me feel much better. Her name is Dr. Culley over at South West Medical here in Anthem. Second thing, I'm a very natural minded person, I feel like if you have a physical problem you can solve it naturally with exercise or diet, so I'm not a big fan of medications. She explained that my feelings of depression and moodiness are very natural and it is perfectly normal to need a little help in feeling better. So I got a low dose prescription of Zoloft.
I tried it this morning and Wow! I feel better! It is the weirdest thing. It's not like I'm this amazingly happy person or anything but it just takes all my negative feelings and tones them down so they aren't taking over my brain. Hopefully I can eventually go off these in a couple months but it is nice to actually feel better and I can immediately feel a difference from my usual self and I like this feeling much more. I feel like I can accomplish more whereas before it took so much effort to even think of doing something and then I usually talked myself out of it. So if there are other new moms out there who are feeling depressed and overwhelmed, I understand and I hope you feel better.
I tried it this morning and Wow! I feel better! It is the weirdest thing. It's not like I'm this amazingly happy person or anything but it just takes all my negative feelings and tones them down so they aren't taking over my brain. Hopefully I can eventually go off these in a couple months but it is nice to actually feel better and I can immediately feel a difference from my usual self and I like this feeling much more. I feel like I can accomplish more whereas before it took so much effort to even think of doing something and then I usually talked myself out of it. So if there are other new moms out there who are feeling depressed and overwhelmed, I understand and I hope you feel better.
Monday, March 22, 2010
Beautiful Monday
Well it is a fabulous Monday in Las Vegas. The weather is an amazing 74 degrees in my backyard resulting in all my windows being thrown open to welcome in the fresh air. Mmmm how I love fresh air in the house, you forget how stale it gets inside until you open everything up. We have some wonderful birds that have taken up residence near our home and they are a twitter all day. It makes for an enjoyable background noise. Lets see... some things that have made this day better.
1. I cut my own bangs. I've been thinking about bangs for a while but every time I go to my stylist he says something like "oh no you do not want bangs, here we will just add some layers on the side." But then I look at all my photos and I have this monstrous forehead, so I just cut my own. Neener neener to my hair stylist.
2. I made a doctors appointment and am able to get in today! I have been extremely moody for a while and I, and Warren, are getting sick of it so I'm getting a physical to see if it is a physical thing or if I am just crazy.
3. I cleaned off a cabinet, tidied up the office, and found Warren's missing cell phone charger. Hurray for me!
4. I found this awesome website thanks to the Perry's blog and I updated my template and learned how to add pages to my blog which will be something to work on.
5. I fit into my t-shirts from like 10 years ago when I was a page at whitney library.
6. I figured out that Eleanor is getting old enough so that she wants solids more and less nursing, I adjusted that today and she is doing great!
7. Along with number 6 I gave Eleanor cut up blueberries and string cheese as a snack and she was so cute to see picking them up and figuring out how to eat them without dropping them in her lap.
8. I was able to put up Ella's jumper in the office doorway so I could clean in the office and she could jump like it was the funnest thing in the world!
So yeah, I am doing good, which is nice because I was kind of depressed when I got up this morning, and that is the annoying thing that I didn't even know why I was depressed. Last week I went jogging three days during the week and I went to my exercise class but even with all those endorphins I was still moody, so I think it is something else, we will see.
2. I made a doctors appointment and am able to get in today! I have been extremely moody for a while and I, and Warren, are getting sick of it so I'm getting a physical to see if it is a physical thing or if I am just crazy.
3. I cleaned off a cabinet, tidied up the office, and found Warren's missing cell phone charger. Hurray for me!
4. I found this awesome website thanks to the Perry's blog and I updated my template and learned how to add pages to my blog which will be something to work on.
5. I fit into my t-shirts from like 10 years ago when I was a page at whitney library.
6. I figured out that Eleanor is getting old enough so that she wants solids more and less nursing, I adjusted that today and she is doing great!
7. Along with number 6 I gave Eleanor cut up blueberries and string cheese as a snack and she was so cute to see picking them up and figuring out how to eat them without dropping them in her lap.
8. I was able to put up Ella's jumper in the office doorway so I could clean in the office and she could jump like it was the funnest thing in the world!
So yeah, I am doing good, which is nice because I was kind of depressed when I got up this morning, and that is the annoying thing that I didn't even know why I was depressed. Last week I went jogging three days during the week and I went to my exercise class but even with all those endorphins I was still moody, so I think it is something else, we will see.
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